We all have known that awful taste they call humble pie. Its not easy to confess our sins to others! We all seem to have an image to uphold.
For as far back as I can remember, I’ve never felt like I was better than anyone else. There were however times, of course, when I judged my own abilities against another’s, like when engaged in talent competition’s. Still my fellow competitors and I were equal in value and worth, that’s just the way I’ve always seen it.
It wasn’t Christian to be prideful and I made a conscious effort not to be.
I, up until just recently, thought I did a good job in this endeavor.
I have found, that once I let go of my own self perception of being a good Christian, that gives me a false sense of my own true character, I open myself up to being shown the truth that is in my heart.
I didn’t realize fear of becoming prideful or self-righteous took root in my life, and because of it, I was walking with a false sense of humility.
Common symptoms of false humility I exhibited were; never being able to take a compliment, having little to no self worth, always needing opinions of others to decide what my own opinions were, low self esteem and next to no self confidence.
I could build confidence up in others no problem, but I stayed a long ways away from the chance of building my own self confidence up..
I truly don’t, and purposefully won’t, stand in judgment of others and I never have felt myself to be better than anyone else.
I thought I was doing good understanding I am a child of God and making sure I stay humble, lowly, un-selfish, usable, putting everyone else first to the best of my ability. I was getting real good at not giving pride or self-righteousness a chance in my life.
Then, while fasting one day, Lord Jesus opened my eyes to what I was truly working under and He showed me how my heart was good, my desire was right, and my approach was wrong.
2 Timothy 1:7 BBE — For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of self-control.
I wasn’t surrendered in that area as I hoped because my fear drove me to works.
I was operating with a spirit of fear, thinking myself genuinely humble. I would down play my gifts, and testimony making them seem un-note-worthy or common.
Never did the thought cross my mind that I may have been hurting God’s feelings. Of course I was hurting His feelings! I was turning His blessings into nothing out of the ordinary! That’s not humility, that’s ungratefulness! I believed the enemies lie that to be happy and confident in the talents Father God blessed me with, would be prideful. I avoided pride at the cost of true gratitude! And can you imagine how habit forming it is to make yourself small and insignificant? False humility can be a tough habit to break!
Because I was trying so hard not to be self righteous or prideful I allowed my light to be put under a vessel..
Matthew 5:14-16 BBE — You are the light of the world. A town put on a hill may be seen by all. And a burning light is not put under a vessel, but on its table; so that its rays may be shining on all who are in the house. Even so let your light be shining before men, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father in heaven.
Father God, Creator of all there is, fearfully and wonderfully made each and every one of us, giving us unique gifts and talents to share with the rest of the world. He meant for us to be exceptional and to be noticed.
We, created in His Image, were meant to stand out. All honor, glory and praise belong to Father God and that’s the difference between true humility and false humility. Who, will those who admire our work, glorify? Us or Father God?
Until next time may God bless you and keep you as you seek Him with your whole heart.