Puzzle pieces

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about puzzles. More specifically a 40,000 piece puzzle that is the Guinness book of world records largest puzzle in the world. This puzzle is the largest in both the amount of pieces and it’s overall size. The part of this puzzle that has me thinking though, is the number of pieces. 40,000 pieces needing to find their place in the big picture.

With that many pieces one might entertain the thought that one or two pieces aren’t such a big deal if they happened to go missing.. keeping track of 40,000 pieces sounds almost overtime payish.

One piece of a puzzle won’t even give someone an idea of what the picture will be once all the pieces are put together.  Having just one piece of the whole puzzle is useless really as it cannot be the whole puzzle even if it wanted to be.  That piece has its one place within the whole, where it is vital to the whole.  If that one piece decided to go it’s own way getting lost, thinking it’s no big deal or unimportant, would ruin the masterpiece for without it the whole would be void in the spot that piece was to take up. Furthermore that piece is not replaceable either. No other piece can or will fit into it’s rightful place.

As I ponder this I am drawn to the idea, what if life was like this. What if God has this masterpiece in mind as He creates each and every piece to fit together, each having it’s own unique shape and each being equally important to the finished project. He’s skillfully and masterfully knit every single human together while in the womb, giving to each a uniqueness that only they can contribute and nobody can take the place of.

We are all just pieces to the whole puzzle. We are meant to fit together, each in our own unique way.

This is not really a new thought, in scripture Paul puts it this way,

1 Corinthians 12:14-27 NLT — Yes, the body has many different parts, not just one part. If the foot says, “I am not a part of the body because I am not a hand,” that does not make it any less a part of the body. And if the ear says, “I am not part of the body because I am not an eye,” would that make it any less a part of the body? If the whole body were an eye, how would you hear? Or if your whole body were an ear, how would you smell anything? But our bodies have many parts, and God has put each part just where he wants it. How strange a body would be if it had only one part! Yes, there are many parts, but only one body. The eye can never say to the hand, “I don’t need you.” The head can’t say to the feet, “I don’t need you.” In fact, some parts of the body that seem weakest and least important are actually the most necessary. And the parts we regard as less honorable are those we clothe with the greatest care. So we carefully protect those parts that should not be seen, while the more honorable parts do not require this special care. So God has put the body together such that extra honor and care are given to those parts that have less dignity. This makes for harmony among the members, so that all the members care for each other. If one part suffers, all the parts suffer with it, and if one part is honored, all the parts are glad. All of you together are Christ’s body, and each of you is a part of it.

Selfishness, self-pity, self-righteousness, all focus on self.  So long as the focus is on self, it cannot also be on service.

The world has made popular the idea that we should be focused on self, like self improvement, self-confidence, self-help, self-esteem, self-acceptance, self-love, etc. All examples of the worldly idea that we need to focus on ourselves.

All around us are the messages, feeding into our minds and hearts, causing us to believe this concentration on self is right.   We are all searching for inner peace, love, and a place to just rest. When focus is on self, no matter what side of the scale, from self-pity to self-righteousness, we are in a constant state of restlessness, anxiety, always standing ready to defend.  We build up walls inside ourselves as part of our defense readiness, having no idea, the walls, once built, won’t allow the bad in, but won’t allow the good in either.   We starve ourselves of the very thing we are seeking, all because we have given into the feel-good, worldly, idea that we should concentrate on ourselves.

The problem is, we were not created for this.   Self, is lonely, isolating, non-community, it’s all take and little to no give.  We were created in the image of  All Mighty God, to be parts of a whole, to fit like puzzle pieces together.  

The enemy doesn’t want us to know we are but one simple piece.  He wants to destroy the puzzle, of course he will most deceptively, by the use of our emotions and lack of true wisdom, give us every reason to continue believing we, individually, are the whole.

We seem to all try to fit ourselves into spots that make us like those we admire or like those we respect. We work hard to prove ourselves worthy of the spots we desire to fit into. The truth is only one might actually fit in that spot. The rest are faking, camouflaged, mimicking, etc.

We all go through this life trying to find our place, a place with people like us, where we feel like we fit in. We look for like-mindedness, hobbies in common, similar interests and ways of living.

We then pass judgement in one form or another upon those who are not living up to our standards. Some may try to use religion or Christian principles as justification for being able to point out wrong doing in others.

We try to hide our true selves just in case we won’t be accepted.

The truth is instead of searching for what makes us the same as, or at least makes us resemble others, we should search for what makes us unique, different, special. We should be looking for our place in the big picture. At the same time we should be encouraging others to find their uniqueness also.

Instead of shunning people that may be different we should be accepting, learning, encouraging, celebrating what makes us individuals.

If we are to mimic Jesus, we need to learn how to serve and accept others regardless of what society and the world try to tell us.

We are all just one piece to the whole puzzle. All equal in significance, all having our own special, uniqueness to contribute to the whole.

Find your unique, be it, own it, show it off because you are special, important, fearfully and wonderfully made, most of all, you are dearly loved by your Creator!

Until next time may God bless you and keep you as you seek Him with your whole heart.

 

Top ten reasons why God is a better pilot over my life.

Top 10 reasons why God is the better pilot over my life.

10. Father God is capable of administering the right amount of discipline as He is not swayed either direction by emotions. I tend to go easy on myself or make things harder. Love for myself is often bipolar, I am not capable of treating me the way He can and will.

Reference – Psalm 119:75 NLT

9.Father God knows all of us better than we know ourselves, and while I, when dealing with people, can mistake their words, actions, intentions and motives, He knows their true motives and thoughts.

Reference- Romans 8:27-28 NLT

8.Father God is not bound by a body as I am. He is omnipresent and has a way better view from his vantage point.

Reference-  Jeremiah 23:24 NLT

7. God lives in the past present and future. He can see where I’m going and He is not bound by time. He’s the alpha and the Omega the beginning and end. He can see my past, present, and future all at the same time.

Reference- Revelation 1:8 NLT

6. God makes my path less burdened, stressful, and traumatic. When in control of myself, I tend to get myself into loads of drama.

Reference-  Matthew 11:28-30 NLT

5. As I listen to His voice, He leads me away from unnecessary trials, hardships and heartaches. He allows me to go through only that which has the ability to produce a change in my character that will glorify Him. On my own this process tends to keep repeating with little to no progress in moving forward.

Reference- Psalm 32:8 NLT

4.  God created everything and everything is His, yet because of His goodness and mercy for me, He takes care of all my needs. I tend to rob Peter to pay Paul without Him.

Reference-  Matthew 6:31-33 NLT

3. God knows me so intimately because he created me. Even I can’t number the hairs on my head, but He can.

Reference-  Luke 12:7 NLT

2. Without Him, I am a roller coaster of emotions.  With Him, I enjoy tranquility, while experiencing the peace, no matter my circumstances, that passes understanding, and I’m given the joy of the Lord as my strength.

Philippians 4:6-7 NLT — Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

And my number one reason is because Father God loved me so much, He gave His only begotten son, so that if I believe in Him I will not perish but have eternal life. Without Him I am dead from my transgressions. With Him, I am redeemed.

John 3:16 NLT — “For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.

God the Father, Son and Holy Ghost,  moved heaven and earth, pulled out all the stops, Left no stone unturned, dotted every I and crossed every t, leaving nothing left to do in order to have a real relationship with me. There is only one thing that He couldn’t do, and so was left up to me. I had to decide to choose Him. And you can bet I absolutely did, and in so doing realized Father God makes a much better pilot over my life than I make.

Until next time may God bless you and keep you as you seek Him with your whole heart.

 

Once brokenhearted

Have you ever had a real broken heart? I’m not talking about I’ll miss you, cry for a few days and be over it kind of broken heart. I’m talking about that ache deep in your core, somewhere between your lungs and above your stomach. That block, something is there but you cant get it out. No amount of tears can help you. That desperation kind of heartache. You try to keep busy so you don’t have time to dwell on it but it traps you. You cant move. You either want to die or make it go away. Have you ever had this kind of broken heart?

I used to live with this broken heart everyday. I was continually suffocated by it. Sometimes I would get relief for an hour, maybe a day, but then it would just come back to torture me again and again. It wasn’t about loosing the love of my life, he was still there right beside me, trying to understand how I could be so happy yet so utterly unhappy at the same time. It was not about loosing my children, their smiling faces would shine up at me everyday just wishing mommy had the power to smile more often. You see,  it wasn’t about loosing a loved one to the hereafter, or not having my dreams fulfilled, or being alone. No, the hardest thing  was, it was not because I had anything to be unhappy about.

           I had a wonderful life. I was surrounded by people who loved and supported me. Problems? Sure, I have lived a life of ups and downs, but who hasn’t? We all have burdens to bear. In fact, I couldn’t pinpoint one thing to be heart broken about in my life.

           There it is! An unending, unyielding, broken, shattered heart for absolutely no reason at all. How do you beat that? How do you heal that? How do you make it stop? When hurt by circumstances, it is easy enough to just change the circumstances, then just like that the hurt is gone. What could I do about this broken heart? It was just there taking over my mind and body as it pleased. How could I make it stop? How could I continue to live with the unending pain that would catch me off guard and wanted to destroy me?

 

It seems that, all around us are the devil’s lies. Most of which we haven’t even discovered are lies and so still believe them as truth. So many of us go through our days just trying to breathe, searching for hope, all while feeling tired and alone. So much of the feedback we receive from others is muddied and often hollow, for brokenness, heartache and struggle make up the true pandemic these days.

Everyone is hurting, everyone is struggling just to barely survive. Each of us in our own personal way, gasp for air as the waves carry us away.

 

Where is a hearing and listening heart?

Where is a timeless shoulder?  Where is a cheerful giver?

Where is a non-complainer?

Where is an encouraging speaker? Where is an unbiased leader?

 

Our society as a whole, it seems,  took a path that felt good and sounded right. We never saw the dividing wall through all the laughter and the smiles. Smooth and Sly the serpents invisible walls started to divide. Broken homes, broken friendships, broken families, broken countries, broken lives. Everyone must fend for themselves, no time for another’s problems and strife. What about me, what about me, what about me we all cry! None seem able to put themselves aside.

Have we, become so deceived, blind, full of wishful thinking, rose colored glasses wearing or downright truth ignoring, in today’s society?

 

Have we, in an effort to build ourself up, to love ourselves, to self motivate, really become shut off and cold to each other? Have we hardened our hearts, taking the community out of humanity?

 

Ashamed I fell to the floor and surrender my crown, asking the Lord to take the lead, when in my spirit I heard, if you want to change your heart and find the purpose to your life, all you have to do is change your mind. Fix your eyes upon Almighty God and refuse to believe the world and all its lies. It’s your choice when your confusion finally dies.

 

In this upside-down world amidst sorrow and pain, there is still a beautiful joy to be found. John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.

 

Jesus said in  John 15:11, “These things I have spoken to you so My joy may be in you, and that your joy may be made full.”

 

I no longer live in that almost constant state of depression. Jesus pursued me and found me thirsty! Hungry for what only He can provide, to this day He never ceases to fill me up. Even with all my sadness, my flaws, He pursued even me. Wow!

 

Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice!

— Philippians 4:4.

 

Until next time, may God bless you and keep you, as you seek Him with your whole heart.

 

 

 

Once upon a time

A crazy thing about my mind, I think, is my ability to trick myself. Nobody wants to believe they have any major faults within them. Personally I like to believe I am a pretty good person. Patient, gentle, giving, law-abiding, non-judging, practicing Christian (at least to the best of my abilities) are some of the attributes I would say could describe me.

Sure I have a less than desirable side too that comes out here and there. I’m well aware I have some imperfections, but hey, nobody’s perfect, right? So long as I’m doing my best, not hurting anybody, and not telling anyone else how to live, all is well and good it would seem.

And as long as my final destination, is what may come, from the best of my abilities here on Earth, I’d be right with such ideas as these. At least while I still live.

Therein lies the problem. The final destination I have in mind, is so far beyond my abilities, it’s almost being cruel to myself even entertaining the thoughts that I could end up there. Seriously, my chances are less than a high school dropout getting into Harvard. And to make matters worse that’s only based on who I know I am or who I believe I could be, it’s not counting those parts of me I trick myself into believing insignificant, or not even worth contemplating because they wouldn’t apply to me.

So there I was, according to me, a good person, living the best she knows how to live, all while dreaming of one day reaching a place, that short of a miracle, could never be reached. Then, I got my very own, “once upon a time” fairy tale story.

The beautiful thing about it is, I know the end is guaranteed to be happy no matter what I may run into along the road I walk getting there. For me having that guarantee is more than I could have ever hoped for or dreamed of especially as I’m known to veer off and get myself lost more frequently than I may be worth.

Once upon a time, I met Jesus!

I may have thought of myself as a good person before. That’s  When my standard was the world.

Romans 10:3 For not knowing about God’s righteousness and seeking to establish their own, they did not subject themselves to the righteousness of God.

Isaiah 64:6 For all of us have become like one who is unclean, And all our righteous deeds are like a filthy garment; And all of us wither like a leaf, And our iniquities, like the wind, take us away.

Now the standard could no longer be the world. Once I met Jesus the standard became Jesus. Now every hope of someday reaching that place was lost. No effort of mine could erase the bad things I have done and no future effort could possibly be enough to stand before Jesus and plead my case for the right to enter that place. I suppose had I not felt the unconditional, unexplainable, unmatchable love of Jesus, I would consider my chances completely hopeless at this point.

But I did! I did feel the love poured out for me like a tsunami enveloping my entire being.

“For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life. John 3:16

But God, being rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in our transgressions, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), Ephesians 2:4-5

My happy ending, yet to come is guaranteed not by my own efforts, not by my own behavior, but by His grace through His love and mercy!!

Praise Father God, Lord Jesus and Holy Spirit!!

Now my final destination will be that place and through no effort of my own!

But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8

In a world where nothing is free and even the basic necessities of life come only through trading time and labor for money to pay for, grace is a hard concept to swallow. It’s to good to be true, is the first thought. Even the most giving of people always seem to have a price for their giving. I’ve heard them say the gift is from the Lord but come to church or lunch or something. Sometimes it’s a gift yet they mean to choose how it will be best used in your life. All small prices to pay for sure yet a price just the same.

This gift though, grace, Jesus death in place of mine, His suffering so I wouldn’t have to suffer, and all I have to do is say yes. Yes I believe and accept this sacrifice for my guilt, my wrongs. Then I also get to go to that place in the end.

Imagine, what kind of love is this? Love that would cause one to give up everything that’s rightfully theirs including their own life just to have someone like me say yes I accept you, yes I want to be your friend, yes I want to know you. It’s a love this world has never known. God who owns it all, Who’s all powerful, Who’s the Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End, the God who created me and created everything this Earth has to offer for me, truly loves me. Even though I took for granted the very life He gave me, even though I turned away from Him, even though I loved the world instead of Him, He loved me so much He made Himself a man so He could be the true sacrifice to save me from that which I deserved. He loved me so much He took my punishment upon himself. What kind of love is this?

Honestly I don’t have a clue what love this is but I do know that I will spend the rest of my life seeking Him to find out. And at the same time, I will spend the rest of my life, singing His praises, for loving me though lost, so much, that I’ve been found.

Until next time may God bless you and keep you as you seek Him with your whole heart.

 

You are not an accident

To my daughter who was left to tread the muddy waters alone. As your little ones look to you for structure, guidance, discipline and love I see every single piece of the shattered heart you so courageously hide for the sake of the innocent.

 

To my son sitting there on the park bench alone, wondering if you could take your own life, instead of seeing the sad disappointment in the eyes of your family, having lost everything as payment for the years of hard work and sacrifice you so loyally gave. I know, through the hopeless desperation you feel, strength is your outward adornment, to save your loved ones from the fear and worry you know so very well.

 

To my young daughter who runs in the night, unsure of your destination, so long as it is far from his sight and also to my young son who has not a friend in the world, as life deals you the double tragedy of, the sudden loss of your family and your home.

 

To all my son’s and daughter’s who sacrifice every dream, every party, every holiday spent with family, every 1st of your growing child, and so many others sacrifices’ including your very life, to keep your country safe and secure. You may think no one notices what you are truly suffering, the things you go through without so much as a thank you from those your risking your lives to protect. I see, I see the deep grief from loss and I know the struggle to continue serving a world so un-appreciating and blind to what it truly takes so they can sleep in peace at night.

  

To all my children who can’t breathe, even a breath of relief, from the sorrow, heartache, and relentless pain you know and live each day of your life.

 

You are not an accident. You are not alone. You are not unworthy.

 I’ve been waiting for so long to finally have this opportunity to speak to you. Time is short and right now the most important thing to Me, is this message getting to you.

 

Will you hear what I want to say?

 

My Word that was written for you says, Psalm 139:15-16 My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth; Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them.

You see David, a man after My own heart, wrote that as he was Inspired by My Spirit. He was beginning to understand who he was in Me and how much is My love for him.

 

My child, as David did, can’t you understand?

You are NOT an accident! Take a moment to comprehend what I just said to you. YOU ARE NOT an accident.

You and all your attributes, all your flaws, everything that makes you, you, is on purpose. I did not go on a bathroom break, take a long lunch, accidentally drop the mold, or have an oops moment, when I created you. I was so very focused and determined, as I knit you, making sure all of My thoughts about you were woven together to make you, you, and very, very much on purpose.

 

Jeremiah 1:5 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, And before you were born I consecrated you; I have appointed you a prophet to the nations.”

 

You can go forth throughout the Earth and search for an equal to the special you truly are.  From mountaintop to mountaintop, ocean to ocean, city to city, from the heights of the heaven’s, to the depths below, there cannot be found, another like you.

 

The enemy hates you because you’re My favorite. The enemy will go to any extreme, to stop you from realizing how magnificent and unique you truly are. He steals My love from your heart and your worth from your thoughts.

 

1 Peter 5:8 Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.

 

 Don’t believe his lies. Don’t let him steal your special and  most of all don’t let him steal our relationship, it means so much to me.

 

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly. John 10:10

 

You suffer so much at the hand of our enemy. Yes your enemy is My enemy. Not one arrow he shot at you has gone unnoticed and will not go unpunished. I have caught and saved every single tear that fell from your eyes not allowing a single drop to hit the ground.

I have grieved your thoughts, your prayers, your time and your praise because of our enemy and his deception.

 

Nothing is hidden from me in all heaven and on Earth.

Hebrews 4:13 And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are open and laid bare to the eyes of Him with whom we have to do.

Your mind May trick you into believing you can hide your worst parts from me as you hide them from the world, your worst thoughts, desires, etc. But nothing can be hidden from me including the very reason such worst parts of you exist. I am aware the enemy wants you to believe you are beyond help, he wants you to believe you are bad, evil to your core, yet he doesn’t know you like I know you. I know the number of hairs on your head.

Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows. Luke 12:7

 

I know your heart, the depths even you have been blinded from seeing.  

I watch with tears as you battle, thinking you are alone, For your struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places. Ephesians 6:12

I am right there wanting so much for you to accept my help.

No wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. 2 Corinthians 11:14

The enemy disguised as light blinds you from the need and desire to seek me and know my voice because he would lose his control over your thoughts. Darling child learn my frequency my voice and guard your heart against any fake counterfeit trying to lead you astray.

 

My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me; John 10:27

 

The enemy says you’re addicted to drink, a drunkard, worthless. I say I love you and long to spend time with you.

The enemy says you’re an addict never going to stay clean, he says you are unworthy to be in the company of the church. I say I love you and you can come into my house.

 

The enemy says you are mean and full of hate, that no love exists in your black heart. I say I love you, allow me to be the wall of protection for I will guard your heart and save you from past hurts happening again.

 

I’ve longed for you to hear My voice, for you to feel My love, my arms wrapped around you, carrying you through the storm, for you to see My good works in your life. Oh how I yearn to be close to you. How long would the enemy be able to feed you lies about My character, My attributes, My mercy and My love, I often thought.

 

Child,

I long for you to truly understand, you are special! Even all your scars , brokenness, attitudes and temperaments. You are loved so much that when I sent My one and only begotten Son that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16 I did that for you and even if only you accept Him, no other person in the world, just you, I wouldn’t change a thing. Jesus would have done all that He suffered for just you. You are so very important! You truly matter! It’s time you realize just how unique, amazing and special you are. There never has been, and never will be, ever again, anyone like you! Created within you, is something no one in the entire world has. One reason I GOD love you so much is because you, are the only you, I ever created. You are not replaceable.

 

You, are that one special gift I blessed the rest of the world with that no one else can offer the world. You, and you alone hold the right to decide if the world will receive the gift I placed within you. I took My time first, thinking about you, then, skillfully putting you together.  Psalm 139:13-14 For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well.

 

I know you haven’t always loved me, I’ve heard your angry cry’s as you often blame Me, I am aware of your chaotic thoughts as your understanding of your circumstances evades you, I watch your time fill up leaving no time to get to know me causing a canyon between us to form and yet, I want you to know it’s ok. I still love you. I still long for you to come home.

 

Listen to the TRUTH. You are not, I repeat, you are not, an accident, a second thought, an oops moment, a doesn’t add up, a wrong side of the tracks, a born into the wrong family or at the very least, wrong generation, etc. creation.

 

Understand, you are a very on purpose, vitally important, and much loved creation.

 

You see your only real mistake or problem is in the believing the lies of the enemy about yourselves and others.

 

To truly understand who you are, you only need ask your Creator and Savior. The key is knowing My voice so you can discern My answer, and that requires relationship.

 

The enemy would much rather you have religion instead of relationship and he will block every attempt you make toward relationship, in hopes that you will become discouraged, disappointed, disillusioned, most of all distracted. See you, can’t outwit him or win against him, but Jesus did, so then, by My Spirit living within you, you have authority over the enemy. Use your authority and help others to do the same. Come home to your Father Whom loves you.

 

Love,

Your Heavenly Father

 

These words were spoken to my spirit I believe from the Holy Spirit.

Until next time, may God bless you and keep you, while you seek Him with your whole heart.

 

P.S. Thank you truckers in Canada and around the world for standing for our freedom and for being an example of true patriotism. You did it, you’re doing it! May God bless you and your mission. May God bless all who have joined in and stand with you!